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I KNEW WHAT IT WAS AS SHE came toward me. For ten minutes I
had watched her talking earnestly with the engineer, and now,
with a sign for silence, I drew her out of earshot of the helmsman.
Her face was white and set; her large eyes- larger than usual,
what of the purpose in them- looked penetratingly into mine. I
felt rather timid and apprehensive, for she had come to search
Humphrey Van Weyden's soul, and Humphrey Van Weyden had nothing
of which to be particularly proud since his advent on the Ghost.
We walked to the break of the poop, where she turned and faced
me. I glanced around to see that no one was within hearing distance.
'What is it?' I asked gently; but the expression of grim determination
on her face did not relax.
'I can readily understand,' she began, 'that this morning's
affair was largely an accident; but I have been talking with Mr.
Haskins. He tells me that the day we were rescued, even while
I was in the cabin, two men were drowned, deliberately drowned-
murdered.'
There was a query in her voice, and she faced me accusingly,
as though I were guilty of the deed, or at least a party to it.
'The information is quite correct,' I answered. 'The two men
were murdered.'
'And you permitted it!' she cried.
'I was unable to prevent it, is a better way of phrasing it,'
I replied, still gently.
'But you tried to prevent it?' There was an emphasis on the
'tried,' and a pleading little note in her voice. 'Oh, but you
didn't!' she hurried on, divining my answer. 'But why didn't you?'
I shrugged my shoulders.
'You must remember, Miss Brewster, that you are a new inhabitant
of this little world, and that you do not yet understand the laws
which operate within it. You bring with you certain fine conceptions
of humanity, manhood, conduct, and such things; but here you will
find them misconceptions. I have found it so,' I added, with an
involuntary sigh.
She shook her head incredulously.
'What would you advise, then?' I asked. 'That I should take
a knife, or a gun, or an ax, and kill this man?'
She started back.
'No, not that!'
'Then what should I do? Kill myself?'
'You speak in purely materialistic terms,' she objected. 'There
is such a thing as moral courage, and moral courage is never without
effect.'
'Ah,' I smiled, 'you advise me to kill neither him nor myself,
but to let him kill me.' I held up my hand as she was about to
speak. 'For moral courage is a worthless asset on this little
floating world. Leach, one of the men who were murdered, had moral
courage to an unusual degree. So had the other man, Johnson. Not
only did it not stand them in good stead, but it destroyed them.
And so with me, if I should exercise what little moral courage
I may possess. You must understand, Miss Brewster, and understand
clearly, that this man is a monster. He is without conscience.
Nothing is sacred to him, nothing is too terrible for him to do.
It was due to his whim that I was detained aboard in the first
place. It is due to his whim that I am still alive. I do nothing,
can do nothing, because I am a slave to this monster, as you are
now a slave to him; because I desire to live, as you will desire
to live; because I cannot fight and overcome him, just as you
will not be able to fight and overcome him.'
She waited for me to go on.
'What remains? Mine is the role of the weak. I remain silent
and suffer ignominy as you will remain silent and suffer ignominy.
And it is well. It is the best we can do if we wish to live. The
battle is not always to the strong. We have not the strength with
which to fight this man; we must dissimulate, and win, if win
we can, by craft. If you will be advised by me, this is what you
will do. I know my position is perilous, and I may say frankly
that yours is even more perilous. We must stand together, without
appearing to do so, in secret alliance. I shall not be able to
side with you openly, and, no matter what indignities may be put
upon me, you are to remain likewise silent. We must provoke no
scenes with this man, or cross his will. And we must keep smiling
faces and be friendly with him, no matter how repulsive it may
be.'
She brushed her hand across her forehead in a puzzled way,
saying, 'Still, I do not understand.'
'You must do as I say,' I interrupted authoritatively, for
I saw Wolf Larsen's gaze wandering toward us from where he paced
up and down with Latimer amidships. 'Do as I say, and before long
you will find I am right.'
'What shall I do, then?' she asked, detecting the anxious glance
I had shot at the object of our conversation, and impressed, I
flatter myself with the earnestness of my manner.
'Dispense with all the moral courage you can,' I said briskly.
'Don't arouse this man's animosity. Be quite friendly with him,
talk with him, discuss literature and art with him- he is fond
of such things. You will find him an interested listener and no
fool. And for your own sake try to avoid witnessing, as much as
you can, the brutalities of the ship. It will make it easier for
you to act your part.'
'I am to lie,' she said in steady, rebellious tones; 'by speech
and action to lie.'
Wolf Larsen had separated from Latimer and was coming toward
us. I was desperate.
'Please, please understand me,' I said hurriedly, lowering
my voice. 'All your experience of men and things is worthless
here. You must begin over again. I know- I can see it- you have,
among other ways, been used to managing people with your eyes,
letting your moral courage speak out through them, as it were.
You have already managed me with your eyes, commanded me with
them. But don't try it on Wolf Larsen. You could as easily control
a lion, while he would make a mock of you. He would-'
'I have always been proud of the fact that I discovered him,'
I said, turning the conversation as Wolf Larsen stepped on the
poop and joined us. 'The editors were afraid of him, and the publishers
would have none of him. But I knew, and his genius and my judgment
were vindicated when he made that magnificent hit with his "Plowman."
'And it was a newspaper poem,' she said glibly.
'It did happen to see the light in a newspaper,' I replied,
'but not because the magazine editors had been denied a glimpse
at it.
'We were talking of Harris,' I said to Wolf Larsen.
'Oh, yes,' he acknowledged. 'I remember "The Ring."
Filled with pretty sentiments and an almighty faith in human illusions.
By the way, Mr. Van Weyden, you'd better look in on Cooky. He's
complaining and restless.'
Thus was I bluntly dismissed from the poop, only to find Mugridge
sleeping soundly from the morphine I had given him. I made no
haste to return on deck, and when I did, I was gratified to see
Miss Brewster in animated conversation with Wolf Larsen. As I
say, the sight gratified me. She was following my advice. And
yet I was conscious of a slight shock or hurt in that she was
able to do the thing I had begged her to do, and which she had
notably disliked.
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